The Queen of hearts and the Ace of spade

She was the Queen of hearts and he was the Ace of spade.

She was a temple of unwavering joy, 
and he a city of structured chaos.

She was a lavish allure and he a serene temptation.

She flare with a dazzling glam while he held a subtle charm.

She was a polite “No” and he was a prompt “yes”!

She stone people with truth and he leave them in musing silence.

She was a dome of endless doubts,
while he drown himself with brimming trust.

She was a storming vibe and he was a calm breeze.

But then all their differences vanished in a blink, 

when the Ace went down on his knees and the queen fell head over heals.

Hmm,.... Nothing! K.

I am actually busy with other important things, but “Hmm”. This same story I have heard from you a million times, but “hmm”. We have done enough chit chats for the day, but “hmm”. You are wholesomely boring, but “hmm”. I know you won’t leave me alone for now, still “hmm”. I can’t be rude, though I want to, so “hmm”."Hmmmmm", will you ever let me sleep in peace? We both are equally messed up, but “hmm” you top me for now. I am sorry, but I really don’t know what to say for this, “hmm”. You can tell me anything and everything, and I am always there for you to listen and “hmm”.

Nothing, because you really don’t care. Nothing! Because it’s the same long uninteresting story. Nothing, because I am too lazy to type. Nothing, because it’s better if we don’t discuss that. Nothing, because I don’t want you to bother. Nothing, because it’s none of your business. Nothing! Because it’s really NOTHING!

The single letter that tells so little, yet so much. The “one letter” answer with mixed set of emotions. Which is always clear in what it conveys, though it leaves you yearning for more. This letter never pretends. It cuts things right there and doesn’t keep you hanging in doubts. A single letter that dam long flowing advices. Highly explicit and outspoken, but again it can be extremely inscrutable as well. This single letter leaves you with no other choice, but to concede! It drains all your energy from continuing further. The letter without any effort empowers the speaker over the listener simply by being on the former’s side. The upper case K! The ultimatum to conversations.

A Letter To My Future Self

Dear future me...

Well and wish the same from you.

It’s been a while since you are tangling in my thoughts. I tell you, this isn’t the first time!  You have disturbed me many times in my past. You have silenced and eloped me from myself for a longer pace than this, even before. Still, I never attempted something like this before and I don’t have the temerity to question my conclusion, even now!! But this raucous silence and my inquisitive self is not ready to keep calm anymore and has prompted me to write this. I do not expect any reply from you. I very well know that even if you would ever bother to reply, “PATIENCE” will be the only word you will be typing back. Still I am here gathering all my strength and brains to open up to you, wanting answers from you. Because, only you know my entire story. Because I trust your diligence, more than anything else. Also because, you will not easy my test.  I know for sure that, you will never endeavor to change anything, in spite of knowing every minuscule details about my past present and future.

As I write this, I sense a better connect with you and please know that this is profoundly soothing. Just this one way conversation with you makes me feel so much dearly at home. Not just comfort, your this acquaintance has inspired me too. You have taught that to stay reliable, modest, keep secrets and build trust is hard, yet possible. However obscure you are, my past has set one thing clear and vivid upon me. That, you are half of what I allow to happen and half of what I can’t control. And over time I am learning to shape your each half. The first half with resilience and the other half with untarnished faith. I am proud and most obliged by the fact that you are always a better person than I am.  

Looking forward to be you

Longingly,

Yours

Present Me.